Midnight Thought

Time is a whirlwind. We have nearly 14 hours of daylight every day, and somehow, it’s unbelievably easy to fill up every minute of every day until we finally sit back and realize how fast we’ve been going. Without realizing it, we’ve lightly shoved Jesus to the side of our life. If we really believe there is a God, and that we are living for Him and Him only, then how is it that we manage to fill up our entire day with these things that we’ve told ourselves don’t even matter?

It’s easy to say that we will dedicate our whole life to Jesus. After all, Jesus is the one and only reason we can be gifted with grace. What are we here on earth for? If we are believers, then we are literally here for one thing: HIM!! It makes me INSANE when I repeatedly pray “Jesus, here is my life. Take it and use it to glorify you,” yet I go about my busy day, foolishly devoting my time and energy on all of the stupid things that DON’T EVEN MATTER. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not expecting myself to drop all responsibility and obligation that I have, but it just drives me crazy when I realize that I’m choosing to spend my time idolizing earthly things around me instead of worshipping our EVERLASTING GOD who will provide us with eternal happiness and satisfaction.

“Now to Him, who is able to do IMMEASURABLY more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is work within us.” [Ephesians 3:20]  

College is one huuuuuge amazing opportunity to show others what Jesus is all about. It’s been a chance to love on others, tell others about the brilliance of Grace, and show others what it looks like to be a believer. There are only a few short hours a day that I have time to 100% put all my focus on God, and it becomes ironic though, and shameful, when I realize that I’m actually using this small amount of time to do other things. It’s also a mind-game, because lately I’ve been filling up this crucial time with developing the relationships that will (hopingly) lead others to Jesus. In further explanation: I’m spending time trying to help others grow a relationship with Him, when I desperately need to do that for myself. How great of a spiritual leader can you be if you are actually spiritually emptying yourself out by trying to be this leader?

The solution isn’t to drop everything and only focus on your relationship with Jesus; that wouldn’t do anything for the world or His Name. Instead, we just need to find balance. We should simply choose to TRULY prioritize Him as the center of our lives and minds, not just part of them. We must make a constant and mindful effort to make time for communion with the Lord. It’s also important to realize that we shouldn’t punish ourselves when we find ourselves skimping on our time with Jesus; just calmly place your focus back on Him. I have no room to give advice since I wrote this post solely to call myself out, and it’s always easier said than done, but the more of an effort that you make to discipline yourself, the more you’ll get out of the relationship. Jesus DESPERATELY wants to have a personal relationship with you, and it’s in your hands if you choose to accept that offer or not. Make time for the One you love, and He will grant you with Grace.

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God." [Hebrews 12:2]

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“You are an E X P L O R E R . Your mission is to document and observe the world around you as if you’ve never seen it before. Take notes. Collect things you find on your travels. Document your findings. Notice patterns. Copy. Trace. Focus on one thing at a time. Record what you are drawn to.”
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Spend time alone and connect with yourself.

No people.

No phone.

Just you.